TLC

My Life

1988
I was desperate to have a child, my husband at the time refused to get
checked out. Then I met ‘him’. I got pregnant with my son after I slept
with him twice…. My husband at the time loved me so much he forgave me, and
wanted me to stay. I couldn’t do that to him or my son, so I left.

December 1989
The baby’s father lived with me in my mum’s house till all the savings were
gambled away by him. Then ‘he’ left, and took all the money that was put
into ‘our’ son’s money’ box, no forwarding address, nothing. I was left with
a 3 week old infant….
Around Christmas I managed to find the baby’s father, and we resolved for me
to come to the UK with my baby. We lived with ‘his’ brother for two weeks, then found a room for ourselves.
From there we moved into sub-let accommodation, and the council found out….

1991
We got evicted from there, and had to go into temp housing. My ex and me
never shared a bedroom, since I don’t allow smoking in the bedroom, there is
no TV and it’s cold in there, lights are off too…HOW DARE I…….
Next is that I drank a lot, every day in fact……

1993
My Ex was working for Chubb Security in Hackney for a few years, and after
being caught stealing from one of the places was supposed to protect he was
sacked for ‘Gross Misconduct’

My middle daughter had a fever in the year, and complained of hurting ‘down
there’, and said ‘Daddy did it’
I took her straight to the hospital where she was examined by a
paediatrician. There were no obvious signs of child abuse, but a social
worker had to make sure if it was safe to take my daughter home.

November 1994
My youngest daughter suffered Bronchiolitis and had to spend 10 days in
Hospital. While I was going to college I was going back and forth from the
hospital, home and college.
After school I picked the older children up and took them to see their
younger sister, who was very ill.
Not once did her father even WANT to come with us. So ten days in hospital
she didn’t see him at all.





1995
I left my baby of a few months in my ex-husbands charge while I went
shopping. On my return I noticed that my daughter had a cigarette burn on
her ankle. He said the lit end of a cigarette had fallen into her shoe, but
the burn was higher then the burn would’ve been if that had been the case. I
can only assume that he had fallen asleep holding her and a lit cigarette.
Though the next few years I went to my health visitor about several things, and I tried to get my husband to go to relate counselling to save the
marriage. He refused point-blank.
1998-2000 I got in touch with his daughter from his first marriage. Over the next two years or so I took the children to see her and her family several times, only once did their father join us. All other times he was too busy going to the betting office, so we went on our own. Contact with her stopped after my ex-husband started telling her lies about me.

First half of 2001
I tried to stop drinking, went to alcohol counselling, and my ex brought
alcohol home, knowing full well that I was trying to stop……

August 2001
I got a job, he didn’t like it; then again, he never liked anything I did
independent. I gave the job up ‘cos I got sexually harassed, but according
to my EX I invited it……
My working hours were from 9am to 6pm, so I asked my friend to take the kids
to school for me, since school only started at 9.15.
My ex got home from work at around 10am, then would probably go to the betting
office or go on the internet. By the time school finished it was 3.30, and
he was fast asleep, so my friend had to pick the kids up from school.
On several occasions they couldn’t even get into the house, and had to knock
for several minutes, till they went to my friend’s house to get the key.
Moving heavy furniture around I hurt my back as well, now I’m on permanent
medication for the pain, and I’m claiming against the company. My ex was
very interested in how much I would actually get in compensation, thinking
that he can claim half.






April2002
Online I met ‘bods’ last April, we started talking, and he came to fix my
cd-writer. He was a lot of fun so we started meeting more. Since I was not
allowed to have any friends it was nice to have someone to talk to.
I got really pissed off with the treatment I got of my ex and asked for a
divorce. Then on the 1st June I kissed my boyfriend for the first time.
At the beginning of June I stopped drinking, and even though my ex brought
alcohol home I did not touch it, he didn’t like the fact that he was losing
control over me, but I was determined to go through with it this time. The support I got from bods, and my friends online has been tremendous and helped me through it.
At the end of June after having been threatened with violence and other
stuff I was actually attacked by my then husband.
I sustained severe bruising, and mental anguish.
After that my ‘ex’ was amicable for a while, unless he had one of his mood
swings and he went mental. On the 18th November the divorce was finalised,
but still my ex refused to move out.
He stopped paying any rent once the divorce was made final. Half the rent was being paid by Housing Benefit on my behalf. My ex was supposed to pay around £40 a week, but only paid when he felt like it, like once a month, and then stopped altogether. The rent arrears went up to over £3000, which I now struggle to pay off. I was also left with a loan I took out to cover debts accumulated years before, and council tax that my ex didn’t pay.



Then on the 31st January2003 MY friend came to see me for my birthday. My
so-called friend met him here that day, and jumped into his bed. The
children were really confused as to what was going on, since they have only
met that woman once before. She stayed a few days, in their father’s bed, walked around my home half-naked.
I sent her an e-mail after she went home to explain that I’m going to court
for the tenancy and if she has any intentions of moving in here she will be
homeless sooner or later.
At the end of the month she came back here, yet again. I found out from my
best friend that she was coming, I wasn’t even informed for how long she
will be staying. The children’s father introduced her as his fiancé,
confusing them even more, then telling them that if he moves out I wont let
the children have any friends in, and they’d be doing all the work around
here.
After she has been here a few days someone e-mailed her boyfriend about what
is going on down here. Her boyfriend phoned me, and I just confirmed what
was in the e-mail. I had already told that woman that I have no intentions
of lying for her, and I didn’t.


Then I even let her use my pc to talk to her boy-friend, regretting it now, since she dumped him to stay here, in MY house, with my children…
That evening my ex threatened to kill me, frightening my youngest, who was
really upset and cried for ages. I called the police, who turned up 4 hours
later, only for my ex to tell them a pack of lies, and them taking it as a
domestic. The next day I went to the police station and reported him again
for harassment, this time they actually took me serious. After that I phoned
my lawyer and told her about the threats, we went to court that same
afternoon to take out an injunction against him.

He was not allowed to enter or attempt to enter my bedroom (my children had informed me that he has been taking pictures of my under-wear). He was not allowed to pester, threaten or intimidate me. A Power of Arrest was attached.
It got quiet then, he actually paid attention to the court-order.
A few days later my daughter’s teacher spoke to me about a not the Jessica
had put into the ‘worry-box’ in school, saying that her father had
threatened me, and that she is scared that I might die.
My children had been complaining that they can’t sleep because she screams
when they are having sex, so I knocked on the door and told them to show
some respect for my children. It worked for that time, but it happened more
times, I e-mailed her to ask her to refrain from having sex while my
children are in the house, and got no reply, apart from her moaning to her
ex about me complaining…

The order lasted a month, and then we had to attend court again. My ex didn’t
turn up for the hearing, so the injunction was extended for a whole year,
and an occupation order was granted, giving him 48 hours to get out of the
property, and not being allowed back. He threatened to go for custody of the
children, and to claim half of the house contents.
They both moved out within 36 hours. She had the nerve to complain to her
last boyfriend that I made her homeless…… she did that the day she decided
to move into my children’s home, and upset them severely.
Throughout the whole year my ex has been treating the kids badly, telling
them lies about me, things like that I had a baby by my father. I was abused
as a child, but that was my grandfather, and my ex knew about this….
He replaced my face with Hitler’s on the family portrait and showed the
children, he even put it online. He was giving the children sweets and cakes
and stuff as soon as they got out of school so they wouldn’t eat what I
cooked for dinner, and because it ‘pissed me off’.
At one point Jessica refused to eat, my best friend had a talk with her and
found out why: She has been to the dentist and was advised not to have too
many sweets and chocolate, and coke. Since that is all she got of her father
she didn’t want to eat anything I cooked because he might shout at her for
eating my dinners, but not his sweets.

After about a week Jessica sat at my friends crying, saying she was hungry.
My friend got in touch with me, and we managed to get Jessica to agree to
eat one boiled egg. Slowly she started eating again.
Throughout the children’s life their father used to throw bottles, shoes, etc at them when they didn’t behave. On several occasions he lifted them up by the neck and threatened to ‘put his fist through their faces’.
He has put boxes of clothes that belonged to me and the children in the garden, making sure he kept all his stuff in the oldest child’s room. Our clothes were totally ruined as he did not cover them up.
Money was stolen from my purse, and plates and cups were broken, which was all blamed on the children by their father. One weekend the children were away with a charity, so I stayed with my friend till they got back. After my return I found over 100 cd’s scratched, again the children got the blame, even though they were not in the house all weekend.


Once my ex-husband has left the house with the force of a court-order the
children started settling down again. My oldest daughter wrote him several
e-mails, to which he never replied. For seven months the children got
totally ignored by their father, and then he decided to turn up at my friend’s
house with a birthday card for my youngest. After that he started turning up
every Sunday and told the children not to let me know that he has been to
see them, and gave them money.
I have never said that the kids can’t see him, but I do not want that woman
to have anything to do with my children, she has done enough damage when she
moved into my children’s home.
On the 22nd November 2003 my ex e-mailed me, demanding to see the children
and take them out.
He has not paid anything towards their upkeep, and ignored them.
Obviously I prefer if he would only see the children at supervised visits, so he can not tell them more lies, and that woman to not have anything to do
with my children.



13.12.2003
Received another letter, not dated, not signed. (attached)
He wants the children to spend holidays with him, while he is at work his
deaf girlfriend will be looking after my children. My children don’t know, nor like the woman, and can’t understand what she says.

The last money I received in child-support from my ex was November 2002.
He had not paid any rent since the same month, leaving me with £2000
arrears, which nearly got me evicted.
A loan I took out to cover his gambling debts is still to be paid off, £2000
left on that, the same goes for Council Tax, he hadn’t paid that either. Now
I receive income support of £54.94 a week, and Child Tax Credit of £93.89
per week.
With that I have to pay bills, the debts I was left with, and buy what the
children need (Food, Clothes and so on).



My ex is still stealing from his employer, and from companies he delivers
to, has done so for years. He stole money out of my purse and blamed it on
the kids. Anything that got broken was blamed on the kids.
He is a Liar and a thief, and that isn’t really what my children need to
learn, or see.
He was not interested in the kids once they started walking and talking, never came to any school assemblies or sports-days. Whatever the children
needed sorting out, I had to do it on my own. My ex was too busy gambling or sleeping...


My ex has abandoned his last family when the youngest was only eight; he had
not been in touch with them for years, till I wrote to his daughter. His
girlfriend abandoned her children, aged between 2 and 5, because she couldn’t’
t cope and didn’t want to be tied down. I don’t think that woman is fir to
look after my children.
Both have a bad track-record concerning their children.

21st December 2003
He brought some presents for the kids for Christmas. As we have seen him go into a ‘Pound-shop’ the Friday before we knew it wasn’t anything spectacular. On the Tuesday we let the kids open those presents so it would not spoil the Christmas for them, and we were right, just cheap things for them. That week they didn’t even get the usual £5 pocket-money that they came expect.




25th December 2003
Received an e-mail (attached) I really do not want to receive any e-mails; if he wants to sort access out he should see a lawyer.

28th December 2003
Received yet another e-mail (attached) This is now getting to me, and I start feeling ill when an e-mail arrives. I have already changed e-mail accounts once, all my friends got my new one, and I just want him to leave me alone. If he got anything to say he should get a lawyer so that I don’t have any contact with him.

I have opened a bank-account for each child, so he can pay the children’s pocket-money into those, the details are at the end of this letter. As my friend does not feel comfortable with my Ex-husband turning up on her door-step, making her involved, I think this is the best option for us all.
I had a talk with my 14-year old son, and he informed me that he is scared of his father and does not want to see him. As Kevin said, he doesn’t know what his father might do.

4th January 2004
The children’s father has not been to my friend’s house this Sunday to leave the pocket-money for them with her. Quite disappointing for them, as after two and a half months they started expecting it.

11th January 2004
No sign of any pocket-money for the kids. Their father has not been at my friend’s house.


April 2004
I offered him Saturdays in a visitation centre to see the kids, he wanted Sundays since he ‘apparently works Saturdays (in the betting office spending money he should pay for the children’s up-keep)
He wrote to my lawyer that he will go to court to get access, it’s now August and nothing happened..

August 2004-08-25
Still waiting for a letter from court

July 2006
He decided that it as a good idea to make AJ (Beate) lie to me and see her behind my back, That lasted for a couple of months untill i said 'It's ok, he is your father, go see him, but please tell me when you are going'.
After that it took a week for him to f*ck off, couldnt even see her for a last time before he 'moved up north' never mind 5 mins to say good bye to his daughter.
A card arrived for Jessica's birthday, and inside it said 'luv ya Dad' That was it, I ripped it up ad put it in the bin, he obviously doesnt give a shit about the kdts, so they might as well not know about him. Any other cards will meet the same fate, unless he catches up on child support, 3 years, x £75 a week ... and not forget the care they need, and the attention they deserve.
It's fine taking the good bits, and f*cking them off again once I know 'cos it cant hurt me, but what about the kids ?

So, yesterday got worse and worse, shopping was a total pain in the ass, Chris seemed moody, and I got more and more pissed off and tired. Ended up getting a bottle of wine. There goes my non-drinking. Sorry Faemist :( You couldnt be more disappointed in me than I already am.
But I'm not going to get any more, I'll just have to learn to live without sleep, and cope the best I can.
On a good note, I slept all night, didn't even hear Chris, if he was snoring. Got up after 4pm with backpain, took my painkillers and feel a bit better now.
All the kids are out and it's very quiet in here, time to clean this mess up a bit since no one in this house seems to notice there is stuff all over the floor, and the dishes need doing. They must all be either blind or decided that that is what mum is for.
Not long before I loose my temper with the lot of them, even I can only handle so much.

Back to drinking coffee

TLC snogs Faemist all over, hope you still love me ;)
*hugs and snogs*

Current Mood: disappointed

7am... I haven't been asleep yet. Tried at 12:30, by 1am I had to get up, couldn't take it anymore, sat here and cried. Went and sat in the van for a while, thinking. As per normal it didn't do any good, it never does.
After a while I decided to paint the loo, keep busy. Not happy with the paint, so have to get different one. Cleaned the bathroom next, with washing the rollers and brushes it took a while. Around 4am JJJ woke up and we had a little chat, Simon woke after 5.
As I was hungry I thought I'd cook some chicken wings, Simon and JJJ tucked in, so I had to cook another lot.
By 6:30 it was daylight, haven't seen that in a while LOL
So I got a bucket with water and washed the van. Before 7am, I have now decided that I actually am mad. But I got a clean bathroom, painted loo, and a washed van.
Yippee
In an hour I'm gonna go shopping, and after that I hope that I can finally go to bed for some sleep, we'll see.
A bottle of wine would be nice right now, but Faemist won't allow it ;)

Current Mood: crazy

Been ages since I've been here, hello all :D
This is my 4th week without a night's sleep. As Chris works days now and snored like a chainsaw at night I have no choice but to try and grab some sleep during the day. Nothing at all gets done, the painting is still not finished. I see about 2 hours of daylight and getting more and more depressed. Giving up smoking and drinking at the same time doesn't help.
I really can't go on like this much longer, I hate wasting all my days in bed and not getting any restful sleep 'cos there are always interruptions in the day. Last night I actually went to bed about 1am to try get some sleep, it takes me an hour to even drift off to sleep and after 2 hours the snoring started, so I had to get up again, another wasted night. I have tried sleeping in Kevin's bed, but ended up having nightmares the whole night. I honestly haven't got the foggiest of what to do. Chris won't go to the doc as he would only be told to stop smoking and drinking....
The longer this is going on the more I get pissed off.

Current Mood: pissed off

Night before last Chris went to bed before I did, first I stayed with Jessica till she went to sleep, then I went to my own bed. Wonderful idea, I thought.... NOT
After 10 minutes Chris started snoring, no chance of any sleep for me. So I get up and go into AJ's room, she got a settee, kept waking up tho, it's a small settee. At 9.30am JJJ came in to ask me something, so I went to her bed for a bit, but her bed is so soft I just can't sleep in there. By 10.30 I gave up and went into the living room, had something to drink and then decided to try my own bed again, too tired. After an hour Chris got up leaving me to try sleep. Managed a few hours sleep which meant all the housework I was gonna do didn't get done, and of course no one here thought of doing something without being told to do it.
Yes, I believe in Santa too LOL

Now it is 6am, after another bad night. I went to bed just after 11, JJJ joined me, after an hour I took her to her own bed, she snores badly too. So by 12.30 am I still had no sleep... lets try again:
Some hooligans outside are screaming, as per normal. can't get to sleep for another hour. I think by 2 am I mustve fallen asleep, finally.
4am arrives and Chris comes to bed, let the snoring commence. At 4.40 I had enough and get up thinking I managed about 3 hours sleep. Oh well, I can get more sleep later. Then I work out that the clocks went forward, so now it is 7am, I missed a whole hour.
Chris drank my last beers but I got enough Bacardi for 3 drinks, nice of the kids to finish the coke off.
Guess I'll be finishing the ironing off this morning, then wait for the next load to go in the dryer.
Only just over an hour to go before the off-license opens and I can get myself more booze to help me sleep.
This cold ain't shifting, my lungs hurt, my throat is sore, and my back complains about the coughing. To top it up I can't breathe properly, the abcess under my arm is more than painful... F*ck this

Happy Mother's day to me.....

Current Mood: exhausted

Had not a lot happening in the last few weeks
Here is the latest tho:
Not been feeling well at all, kids gave me a cold, I'm not getting over it as easily as I had hoped.
I think it's moving to my lungs as I'm coughing a lot and got problems breathing.
On top of that Chris' snoring seems to be getting worse, I hardly get a good nights sleep.
Tried the last few afternoons to grab some sleep but the nightmares with mum have come back, a lot worse.
Now they invovle my brother beating me and mum telling him to. In my dreams I ask mum why she hates me so much, but obviously I don't get a reply. I wake up crying most times wondering what I did to make mum hate me so much.

Today I just did a load of washing and ironing, now my back is hurting badly. My own fault I guess, but as long as I try to keep busy I might not get too deep into the depression again.
This is starting to drive me up the wall.
Chris still hasn't found a job, so far I managed the bills, but the van's safety check and road tax in due at the end of June, I have no idea if I can afford to keep the van on the road after that. If the van needs repairs it looks bad.

Life's a bitch then you die.....

Current Mood: depressed

Forget everything that went on before, my eye cleared up, thankfully, life went back to normal.
Till the bank decided that they can charge me £50 for being overdrawn on my account for one lousy day. So instead of me getting back on my feet and not being overdrawn, they make me overdrawn. So no matter what I try, it aint gonna work. I cant afford to buy food, or pay my bills. Thanks to my bank.
So I'm now at the point where I just dont give a f*ck at all, take my cheque book to get food in so that the kids have something to eat in school. That overdraft aint gonna get paid off in a while, and the more I have to use cheques, the more I get charged. But how else am I gonna feed the kids ? My liver is already dancing since it hasn't had to deal with alcohol since ;)
If Chris doesn't get a job soon I have no idea what is gonna happen next, I can only make so many meals out of the stuff we got left in the fridge/freezer.
Magic i can do, miracles take a little longer .....
/me cries

Current Mood: depressed

Got up with my eye closed up, got an infection, it's been hurting since yesterday.
This place is a mess, I'm fed up with it. If I got the energy I'll do something about it tomorrow. Yeah right... LOL
PC had no sound again, some wierd error from the microsoft kernal audio mixer, like I'm supposed to know what that is.
Instead of just disabling it I clicked on uninstall, how stupid can you get? Gotta love Batman for helping me, at least I got sound again.
Asked the kids to do the dishes, so they moaned again. 'Why do we have to do them every day ?
'Cos i use plates every frigging day ?
AJ kept pestering me about a birthday present for her best friend. Which part of 'Chris is out of work and I got all my bills to pay' doesnt she understand ? I'm already struggling to get essentials. Her friend will have to wait a bit till I can afford to get her something. Some bills arent paid, and i can't afford to make the minimum payments on my credit cards.
Chris slept all day again and not getting any help without having a hissyfit is really getting to me.
Ended up sitting at the PC crying, again.

Here's hoping for a better day tomorrow.

Current Mood: crappy

I was supposed to go into school for lunch and get the phone crap sorted out, as per normal I slept too long. Got ready to see the office just before home time. Got all dressed up to throw a hissyfit, only for her teacher to totally agree that the school is responsible and asked me to give them till Monday evening, if the phone hasn't been returned by then the teacher will go to the police and report the theft. As far as I'm concerned they have to replace the credit too, unless they find out who had used it.
And I want something done to that thieving git.
Expulsion sounds good to me.
Still, have to wait till Monday, and JJJ is without a mobile :(
Fun is had by all

Current Mood: aggravated

Chris went for an interview, only to find the office was shut for painting and stuff.
JJJ had her phone stolen in school, which was suppoed to be in a 'valuable bag', a bag they make the kids put their expensive stuff in, like phones. JJJ's was taken tonight, and I will be creating at school tomorrow.
They took the phone off her, it was stolen while in their possession.
JJJ got the phone to call me if she is going anywhere after school. School screwed that up ...
I aint happy
JJJ was devasted, sobbing her heart out thinking I'd scream at her. It isnt't her fault, it's the schools. If she were allowed to keep the phone with her (switched off) none of this wouldve happened. The only reason I let her have the phone is 'cos she phones me after school to let me know if she is going to extra classes, sports classes, or to a friends house.
OK, when I was growing up we didnt have mobiles, but we do now, and i gave my youngest one so she can call me, or text me when she is going to her friends so I dont have to worry about her, or call Scotland Yard like i did before .... How am I gonna know if my child is safe if the school doesnt care about the mobiles ?
No way on this earth JJJ will ever hand her mobile in again, she will have it on a neckband,
switched off while in school,it WILL NOT be handed in, ever again.
My mum got her that phone, and mum died just after. I'm pissed off...

Current Mood: pissed off

Chris went for an interview in the afternoon, only to find the office closed till Tuesday. Wonderful.
JJJ came home from school in floods of tears, some little shit in her class has stolen her mobile phone. She was devastated.
I cancelled her sim card, but didn't manage to do it before it was used. About one pound of her credit was used to call her friends and send text msg's to them. I called the school and they said there will be an investigation.
Apart from that I had a pretty good evening, felt well and in a good mood.

Forgot my prozac last night, so I took it at 8am, went back to bed. So I spent 17 hours sleeping.
What a life :D

Current Mood: amused

So much for thinking I see more of Chris now he is unemployed..... He is awake when I sleep, and he sleeps when I'm awake.
This is ridiculous. For a week he is supposed to sort out unemployment benefit and look for another job. Nothing has been done.
I'm really getting fed up. All my bills start coming out this week, and I'm already struggling, can't get food.
How the hell am I gonna feed the kids if Chris doesn't get a job soon.

Current Mood: worried

I spoke to my close friend in Los Angeles, he and my son are close too. My friend explained to Kevin about helping me out a bit around the house. With my bad back I can't do everything on my own anymore. Since that day the kids have not moaned once about helping out. I love Blkhawk :D
Now I just need him to come over to London so I can spoil him :D:D

Current Mood: happy

Went shopping with jjj, and we decided to get a vacuum cleaner that got a hose so we can get it under the table and around furniture legs and so. jjj likes it so much she wants to do all the hoovering from now on. So I decided it's a good idea, jjj can do all the hoovering and the two big ones can clean the kitchen. Who washes cleans the worktops and cooker, and the one drying has to take the bin out.
jjj also has to clean the bathroom. Sounds fair to me.

Current Mood: devious

All I ask of my kids is to help with the dishes. Guess that is too much.
Kevin stood in the kitchen swearing like a trooper, so I went in and screamed right in his face.
He is still living under my roof, and by my rules. In the end I did the dishes myself, couldn't be bothered arguing with the kids.
Kevin just sat in his room, doing nothing, probably was even to scared to switch the xbox on in case I start screaming again LOL

Current Mood: pissed off

Quiet day, as per normal.
Chris went to work, and came home just after midnight, he walked out of the job.
They were sacking him next month anyway due to lack of work. But they totally messed the warehouse up, and instead of the normal 4 or 5 trucks to load they sent 10 down. Having to search for everything that needs loading is a pain in the a$$ at the best of times, knowing you get sacked anyway and then get the triple workload is a joke.
Gotta see how I can manage the bills and get food in. We'll see.

Current Mood: anxious

yay for Valentine's Day
Chris got me a nice card and some snowballs.
I still had to cook. LOL
Apart from that, nothing exciting today

Current Mood: bored

Strange weekend, Chris drank every night all night. Slept all day. Nothing got done, never mind me wanting to get the youngest's room finally sorted out so she can have her own space. I had early nights as I'm fed up wasting every weekend all weekend.
Still haven't managed to get a lot done, just washing, ironing and general cleaning.
Yesterday morning I got up at 5am, Chris was just drinking his last beer, then started on the white rum I had left. He got so drunk that he kept repeating stuff, getting more and more annoying. By 10am I was getting really pissed off with him, thank God
he went to bed before a fight started. JJJ doesn't like him when he is drunk as he just will not leave her alone.
Chris managed to get to work, wonder how he feels LOL
I went to bed early, sleeping for an hour at lunchtime doesn't seem to work for me. I left the kids to play games and watch films.
Slept all night with some nice dreams. Got up at 6.30am, Chris wasn't back from work. Trains were running late.
When I wanted to go shopping I went to wake AJ to come with me, she was too tired and I found another kid in Kevin's room, the kids didn't even leave me a note that Kevin's friend was staying over. Oh well, at least they behaved :D

I started clearing JJJ's room to move the wardrobe out and the bed over to the other side, Chris helped a bit :D
Here is hoping that she can finally sleep in her own room without feeling claustrophobic. There is still a lot of work to be done in there, and we have to order a new wardrobe, but it's starting to look good. Painting won't get done for a while yet tho. If Chris is really losing his job next month we cant afford paint just yet.
Still got the hallway to paint anyway.
Eventually I will get everything done, but for now I'm happy with what I achieved so far :D

Current Mood: accomplished

I spent the whole weekend sleeping. My youngest left mum's pillow in my bed and it was like heaven when I went to sleep. For AJ's birthday I managed to get up for three hours on Saturday, then went back to bed till the morning. No bad dreams at all, that is a first in months. I spent Sunday sleeping too :D Got up just after 6pm, went back to bed at 10 and slept till about 3 am, got up for 2 hours and back to bed. Since Monday I have been getting up early, staying awake in the day, and going to bed around 9 or 10 pm.
Yesterday I went shopping with Chris first thing in the morning, then got home and started on laundry. Spent today doing laundry, and started on ironing. AJ's is all done, just got Kevin's and Chris' to do. I even vacuumed this place, I'm actually impressed with myself after months of forcing myself to just cook, and housework not getting done.
Mum's pillow seems to help me sleep, and my period had finally stopped too, after months of the crap
Life is looking better now :D

Current Mood: bouncy